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Thursday, July 24, 2008
3 of the kittens have just been taken away. My mom is keeping the one, but the rest my dad is simply dropping off...somewhere..a farm, he claims. This tears me up inside, but there's nothing I can do. I don't know anyone to ask about taking a kitten & there are no open shelters I could find. And my father will not allow us to keep anymore cats beyond the one my mom wants to keep. It's horrible. But the sad thing is this is what has gone on for years, back when I was just a little kid when my unfixed female cat: Missy. She continued to have litters, sometimes twice a year, up until the point that she wandered off to die (we never found her body) when she was about 18 years old.
For whatever reason, my parents are taking to me again..again, like nothing has happened. It's their anniversary today, my mom asks if I wanted to play minigolf. I really shouldn't, I should say 'screw it' & avoid them as much as possible, but how many chances do I have to play minigolf with anyone? ..Plus I want to see how to get to this location..It's this really nice place in Gettysburg. I have half the mind to go there sometimes & simply play by myself. How sad is that, huh? Play minigolf by myself?
Plus there's a claw machine there...Sweet zombie Jesus, a CLAW-MACHINE! My addiction. It's harder & harder for me to find those things. The one at the grocery store hasn't worked right in over a year & has had the same plush toys for over a year (you figure someone would fix it eventually..) The movie theater's one doesn't work well.. The Gettysburg Walmart used to have a BUNCH, but I visited there, for the first times in months, and they were all removed.
Fortunely I managed to visit a new (for me) movie theater on Tuesday. Several CLAW MACHINES there. Managed to win me a small Batman, large Hulk, a peguin & moo-cow plushes. One the downside, I'm apparently the only person that can't enjoy the Dark Knight movie..Maybe I could list reasons, Bale's voice, too long..But it just didn't thrill me. None of the movies have captured the Batman spirit for me, except the Tim Burton & animated ones.
Bootlegged WALL-E scene uploaded on youtube:
It's beautiful, but it's moreso on the big screen & not cropped.
Posted by Sara @ 09:46 AM CST [Link]
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I lose track of what goes on..Well, nothing much goes on but..hey listen to THIS.
What day was it...? Saturday, yep, Saturday. I had the day off & I went over to my aunt & uncle's house with the intention of finally collecting the money they borrowed weeks ago & spending some time with them. Based on what my uncle had said to me the day before, I thought perhaps he would drop me & their daughter off at this place called 'Outdoors World' (it's a cool store connected to the Mall) that my cousin really wanted to visit but I didn't know how to drive to. Sorta unfortuntely, he informed me that he had changed those plans & was gonna take us to the creek instead...OR I could take my cousin out until about 6pm, when he & my aunt would be done at the creek.
See, I had no bathing suit & was in no mood for the former, so, dispite not wanting to be out for so long, I went out with my cousin..Didn't do too much different from what we usually do..played at the arcade, visited abunch of pet shops, walked around the mall, had some lunch & ice cream, saw Wall-e again (I'm still obsessed with that movie, btw..Frankly it's one of the few things keeping me alive & sane right now.) Drove her home & left to go home myself, after her parents got back.
Unfortunely by then it was after 7pm & my mom chose to this day to go PYSCHO-BITCH.
So anyways..I get home, it's late, still light out because it's summer. My dad asks me if I had a good time out & then they bring up the subject of an Anniversery present, since it's their Anniversery this Thursday. My mom had previously brought up this subject to me - that they wanted money this year, and since I've forgotten how much I would get this (dollar amounts in gift cards) I asked how much..$50 EACH, she had said. I thought that was freakin' ridulous. And had previously told her so, in less harsh words. You know, for gift giving, I think I'm pretty generous - hell, for their Birthdays or Christmas I would normally spend or give $50 or more. But for an Annivesary - something I have NOTHING to do with & for a gift that is suppose to be a JOINT present to both of them..Asking or demanding (like they seem to do later on) IS FUCKING GREEDY.
But, for whatever reason (perhaps because they were planning on going gambling like they do every month & wanted that money NOW so they could lose it), this subject was brought up again & I expressed the same view that $100 was too much in my opinion.
"FINE. You don't have to get us NOTHING.", my mom, who had previously been talking in only a montone earlier, drama-izes.
This is normal for her, anytime she argues, she goes into this whole 'Woah is ME'-mode. My dad briefly continues this arguement, but my mom stands by her grounds with "You don't have to get us ANYTHING...And by the way, I don't appresant you not letting us know you were not coming home late."
"I didn't orignally intent do." I said so truthily.
She continues on, complaining that my one cat's food dish (for her & her 4 kittens) was empty (I feed them in the morning & in the evening - this day I failed to feed them since I wasn't around - still no biggie since it's not like my mom has a job or anything) when she came back (my neighbors/rich landlords on on vacation - hence we can use their pool). And I could have "Called them, I have a cell phone.." (although since my mom was up at my neighbors & has no cell, whom would have heard anyways?) and she's sure my "aunt & uncle (she used their names, but I'm not) would have let me use THEIR phone."
That last part was said in an 'Yes, I know EVERYTHING'-way, Which is stupid because she KNOWS I keep in contact with them, hell I spend 2 nights there last month. I don't lie about that & I don't bring them up because she does not want to hear about them.
And, incase you are reading this & don't keep track of all the little insanities of my family tree. My mother, for whatever stupid reason she invented in her head, presently has cut off all contact with my aunt, uncle & cousin...leaving her with no family & friends beyond my dad & I. End backstory.
So since she's (for whatever reason she's invented in her head) pissed off at me, I head inside & retreat to the safety of my 2 rooms in this house. Fortunely I only have to head downstairs to feed my cats & get food for myself, so it's a nice safe retreat for me.
Since then she has not spoken to me. And then today, my whipped father demands that I speak to HER. I wander into the 'front room' (as we call it), the room that contants their tv & the chair my mom will sit in, reading romance novels thought most days. I tell her this: 'That dad tells me to talk to her, but I was under the impression that she did not want to speak to me.'
Still in her stuborn mode, she goes on that she 'Has nothing to say to me & I should go about with my own life.'
Yeah my life. Like I live a rebellious life that brings stress to THEIR little existence..
Anyways, that's my present situation. Alittle more serious than usually.
Mind you, I REALLY don't try to do anything to upset these people. I'm a loser of a daughter, yes, but I do work, I pay rent, I will typically tell them before I go out, I will look online for their lottery results or purchase gifts that my mom will want to give to my father. I'm scared enough of them that I don't have the nerve or courage to talk back or take action against their insane ways..
And I remember last time they give me this whole 'silent treatment'..Just after getting back from sleeping over at my aunt & uncles. JUST after my mom had decided to cut them out of our lives..Atfirst simply her sister & brother-in-law, but then even the present she bought (well, I bought, she gave me the money afterwards) was not going to be given to her niece.
There was not talking for a few days with that. They knew where I was, alcourse, I didn't lie..Just because I dared to not listen to her & go 'head & not disapoint my cousin was reason enough for them to not talk to me or avoid entering a room when I was downstairs. Not even saying a freakin' 'Happy Birthday' to me once on that particular day..And then, one day my mom calls me down for dinner, like those days never happened..
Speaking of which, I should have said this at the start of this entry but..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VEGA!!!!
very late..I'm sorry, I wish I had atleast drawed a card for you. I'll tell you the truth, that I tried to, shortly after I saw it was your birthday on your site, but I couldn't do such a good job..Whatever skills I have in drawing become very rusty after a few months. I would try again, but it seems rather pointless at this point.
I wish I could show more kindness towards those online who actually give me...well, just THAT- kindness.
So, back to the rant/story.
Will this be the point where they throw me out? At which point I have no choice but to move in with my aunt & uncles..Not SUCH a bad situation, mind you...but I would be...very messed up with all the change. I've lived & grown comfortable with my isolation...and my..(looks around room)..my stuff. I could never fit all my stuff there. In, in a way, I feel I need them all. Hard to explain. And my cousin, as much as I love her & love visiting - she would drive me INSANE after a few days. She would, she would not leave me alone & I NEED my alone time. I know no other way to live.There's another situation that came up a few...maybe it was just 2 weeks ago, actually.
Do you remember Jesse? This is a guy I worked with briefly at Blockbuster for a few months. He's someone I actually got along with quite well, we could joke with one another & actually had quite a few good conversations/discussions. And then, suddenly, while I was on vacation, he quit. A few months later, there was talk from my manager that he wanted to come back, but there was nothing after that. This is someone I actually missed & thought about for awhile after he left.About 2 weeks ago, he was at my store. He recondised me before I could really remember him & spoke briefly & gave me his cell phone to call & said that we should 'hang out sometime'. Afterwork I did call & we did talk some, he seemed very happy to see me & that I had called. His present situation wasn't very good - he had no car, no job at the moment & was living at a section of his mother's house.
He also said there weren't many minutes left on his cell to use, but after the phone call ended, we texted messaged for awhile & had talked of continuing the converstation the next night after he had purchased more time for his phone.I called the next day, but no one picked up. To my discredit, I didn't leave a message, but at the point I wondered if he even purchased any minutes yet..Since then, nothing.
I hate it when people do this. I hate false hope & I hate people that act friendly only to cut you out of their lives as if you didn't matter. This has happened a few times already.
If I could get by on my own, I would just say 'Screw the world' & cut myself off from everyone.
I'm gonna wrap this up now.
WRAPPED.
(please forget the misspellings - I can not spell correctly & I write words in the wrong order even when I'm really trying to type correctly - also I really don't want to read over these events again.)Posted by Sara @ 09:14 PM CST [Link]
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Oh, but there is a greater horror out there. Worse than a giant Eddie Murphy head on the loose..
Remember that Taco Bell Chihuahua? I loved that little guy..I honestly have 8 talking plush toys of him. Next to the freakin' SCARY ASS 'Burger King' KING, he's my favorite fast food mascot. Granted, by now that dog must be long dead, back when he was popular, he was suppose to star in his own movie..I also sorta wanted to see that film..But not at THIS way, lord NOT THIS WAY!!!
More WALL-E clips: (spoilers obviously)
The space shuttle:
Foreign contaminant:
The repair ward:
The dance off:
Posted by Sara @ 11:40 AM CST [Link]
Monday, July 7, 2008
Be afraid...
Eddie Murphy's head will eat you while you sleep!
Posted by Sara @ 11:07 AM CST [Link]
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I finally made my very own WALL-E spoof. By combining footage from the trailer & sound from Space Mutiny (cheesy sci-fi movie featured on MST3K) I've made:
SPACE MUTIN-E
Thank God for those recording at theaters..Now if only I knew where to download that sh..
WALL-E/EVE fan vid - cutness/sadness - spoilers obviously
Posted by Sara @ 09:53 AM CST [Link]
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Saw WALL-E again today. Until something else comes along, this will be my mini-obsession at the moment.
With just the trailer available, there's not too many spoof available on youtube yet. This one, despite being pretty stupid, is entertaining enough that I must have watched it atleast 5 times by now:
WALL-E's darker side comes out in the sequal
WALL-E & EVE Interaction toys:
Walmart had no WALL-E toys as far as I could find..(did have some cute WALL-E/EVE shirts for kids..Why don't they make them in ADULT sizes?!) Toys R US was all out of the interactive one.
Fortunely, between the time that I started this entry, looked on youtube for the link to that last video & saw a comment that said Blockbuster carried them - I managed to call up a store & drive all the way there & back. Hence I now have an interaction WALL-E of my own..Just no EVE, which seem to be really rare & are going for over $50 on ebay.Off to other things..
Posted by Sara @ 05:53 PM CST [Link]
Friday, July 4, 2008
No BJD for Sara...
I actually just had to shell out over a hundred bucks for getting by 'Baby' kitty shots. I think it's another $70 for getting her fixed in alittle while.Right now, I want a WALL-E..of some sort
http://www.toysrus.com/search/index.jsp?sr=1&f=Taxonomy%2FTRUS%2F2254197&origkw=wall-e&kw=wall-e&kwCatId=&pg=1 or atleast to see the movie again. Yes, I'm still thinking about it a week later, it's THAT good.Posted by Sara @ 12:08 PM CST [Link]
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
New store officially opens tomorrow. Suppose to be busy as hell...for atleast the next several weeks or so. Had some vistors yesturday (who were given coupons for free foods/drinks), as well as a 'family hour' inwhich 2 immediant family members or close friends could come in for a free drink & samples. I was on register for the first 2 hours while it wasn't busy & then making drinks non stop for another 3. Then the rest of the night we were cleaning...
I've decided on the BJD doll I want...I'm just gonna start out with one (orignally I was gonna order the 2 I want from the same seller & save money, but I would feel better spending less money & completing one instead of having 3 nude bodies) it's rather cheap (compared with others) & comes with free eyes (choice of 5 available, hopefully one will be the ONE I need..otherwise they come out & I will require stuff to install a new pair in).
I've looked & found a wig that will fit my 'vision', a wig cap (to avoid stains & slipage) & a pair of pants & shirt. It's actually hard to find good clothes for a 1/4 bjd (or 45cm tall). Most are made for 1/3 sized (60-70cm) or the standard size of a Super Dollfie. The ones I'm looking towards buying are by 'Angel of Dreams'.
But here's the thing...I'm having a hard time allowing myself to buy this. I know I shouldn't. I WANT it, but I can't get the nerve to spend this money. I HAVE it, it's there. Just I can't...
It's guilt. That's what it is. I don't deserve this. Nothing this pricey I could possibly deserve.
Nontheless, it's confusing when I can't make myself do something..Just like my head's going in 2 different directions.
*editing this entry*
Okay. Know what I need? I need someone to TELL ME to buy this. I need direction, I usually can't do anything without that. Someone please tell me to do this!
It's HOTLINKIN' time!
Here's what I'd like to purchase: (It's HOTLINKIN' time!)
Nude bjd: http://i43.photobucket.com/albums/e398/servicebear/AOD/1-4%20doll/CHEN/DSC04492.jpg
Wig: http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h244/skonline/wigs/m34.jpg?t=1197018455 (Inwhich I will then cut)
Shirt: http://i6.ebayimg.com/06/i/000/ec/06/d45a_1.JPG
Pants: http://i3.ebayimg.com/05/i/000/d3/69/8cf3_1.JPG
I'll admit the outfit is not too exciting, but I wanted a something cheap to start with & this particular..Well this doll is gonna have a personality, ya know? He's simple. He just gonna dress in simple black clothes. No shoes yet either. I ain't going that far yet, & hell I go around barefoot as much as I can, so why not my bjds?
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