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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
BORED.
Posted by Sara @ 11:30 AM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Well, I was talking about ghosts last night & I'm not sure if this is related..This morning I noticed 2 bricks on our porch moved ontop of one another:
It's a small thing, but it's still rather weird! I mean, we live away from other houses. It's not like people or no good punk teenagers could wonder onto this property or anything. And it's just the fact, one was moved up & the other one was pushed up & to the side of the other. It's random, but odd.
Decides that I've been killing time with the ytmnd site. These ones amuse me the most:
http://simpsonradio.ytmnd.com/
http://tehdarkwingduck.ytmnd.com/
http://ashtonplaylist.ytmnd.com/
http://whatistheoffice.ytmnd.com/
http://lohanfacial.ytmnd.com/
Or that I could remember or find at the moment.

With any luck, if my parents win some money or go out for food, they'll bring me back some today.
Posted by Sara @ 11:55 AM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Happy Easter..er, alittle early.
My parents are down at the casino today & tomorrow. We had ham a few days ago, so that's our Easter..Not much of an Easter, but then again the Easter bunny's been skipping our house for years. Zombie Jesus must be rolling in his grave.
Lookee here. It's a listing of haunted sites in Pennsylvania. The one:
'Allegheny - North Park - Old Mill Rd. - Gravity Hill - At the stop sign closest to North Park Golf Course, you are on a hill going down...but when you stop at the stop sign and put your car in neutral, you actually go back up the hill instead of drifting down the hill! I haven't heard of any reasons why this happens.'
I've actually been to this. Times when my uncle takes me home, he has to stop there & tells me about that story & how a bus was suppose to have been hit there. Hence the ghosts of the kids are supposenly pushing the cars & such. And he would put his car/truck in neutral & it would indeed go foward. Still, it wasn't that amazing..I think it was just on a weird slope or something.
Being alone in our haunted house has got me thinking on this subject..Although, as I probably mentioned before, I'm not quite that good at seeing ghosts. That or they don't make their presents known to me much.

Posted by Sara @ 09:24 PM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Friday, March 21, 2008
Quote of the Day:
Madeline Ashton: "Make is pointless! It does nothing anymore!"
- Death Becomes Her
That's sorta how I feel lately. Being female, I been trained in the fashion of never going out without makeup. Although it's sorta that- pointless..It covers up the ugly, more or less. So I'll be out for a few short hours, go home, wash it off because it's bound to make my face break out if I keep it on too long..You can't win.
Posted by Sara @ 12:20 PM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Nothing new to report.
I'm just here to chat slightly.
(writes 9 words)
(looks back on what I've written)
Ok, this seriously is not good..I WANTED to write:
I wish I knew of a good forums..With
but instead I wrote:
'I wish a new of some good forums..With'
My brain confused a vowel with another vowel & a word with another word that sounds the same..There seriously isn't something (goes to write 'write') right there! I mean it. I'm simply quite dumb or have some kind of problem where I can not write correctly.
So..where was I?
I wish I knew of a some good message forums..With people who simular interests. Just to lurk & read. I find myself revisiting a few sites repeatidly during the day..It's just pretty pathetic.
Need to change. I go to bed most nights with that feeling: 'Tomorrow will be different' But I don't change - too lazy..Fall into the same roulteen..can't spell, sorry..too lazy to look that word up.
Anyways, tomorrow I shall be going out..What for, I don't know yet. I don't know of any other local places I can look for a job at. Even places farer away..With the price of gas, it seems hardly worth it.
I'm screwed basically. How much longer I can get away with that - I'm not sure. He told me to quit, through..I keep remembering that. Nevermind that I would have HAD to quit sooner or latter, when I got the nerve. He told me to quit, he told me he would help me.
I really don't like complaining. I'm sorry. There's just nothing else for me to discuss here.
Posted by Sara @ 04:27 PM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Oh...life goes on.
Nothing has changed much 'round here.
Tomorrow's 'Saint Patrick's Day'. Celebrating the Irish &/or excuse to get drunk. I believe I do have some Irish in my white-trash makeup. But if there's no mail tomorrow, I'm washing my hands upon the whole freakin' holiday.
Insane celebs are the most entertaining. Example A:Video of Tom Cruise singing & dancing aboard a Scientology cruise ship on his bday. Make what you want of that, but I think he did a pretty preformance of '"Old Time Rock and Roll."..And he does the WORM. How many people do you know that can dance the worm?!
Job searching is looking worse & worse..And sadly I do sorta miss working at the ole soul-crushing-hellhole of my video store. Maybe if that head guy who makes my skin crawl wasn't working with stores, I'd go back.
I wish I had something more interesting to add here. Well, I did have some dreams I could recall after waking up recently. Not too interesting or telling me anything I didn't already know, but I did have another one today requarding our house being on fire. 2nd one in a few months. I think it's trying to tell me something.
Description on: Dreamsleep.net
Psychological Meaning: Fire destroys but it also cleanses and purifies. It can illuminate but also cause pain. Its energy is a potent symbol of eternal life or eternal damnation. Fire is a powerful yet ambivalent dream symbol.
In dreams, it can signal a new beginning, spiritual illumination, sexual passion or disruptive emotions such as the flames of passion or envy. For example, to dream of a house burning down or a forest fire warns that you are consumed by passions. Consider whether your emotions are getting out of control and whether you need to calm the flames. Are you being a hothead? Or perhaps you have a ‘fiery’ temper? Be careful or your ‘burning’ passion may spark a ‘flaming’ argument!
That's abit true..I don't express much emotion or passion outwardly, but I do feel it at times. Perhaps abit more strongly now..Hard to say. Either way, there has never been much of an outlet for any of these feelings...Well, maybe HERE.
But even here, I keep some things from you. I don't know you afterall, & by default do not really trust you.
Nothing personal.
Still...would you like to be my friend? LOL..That doesn't actually make me 'laugh out loud' but it does make me smirk alittle bit. If you are reading this &/or have my read my words for awhile, I'll consider you a friend. Just don't actually refer to me as a 'friend' - I won't know how to react & will become very uncofortable. Or expect me to interact with you, I really can't at this point. Just know that if you listen to me, I'm touched by your kindness & wish you the best in life.
That above paragraph is so....Just wrong/pathetic/stupid. But that's how I feel.
See, one bad thing about this blog is sooner or later I get away from describing my stupid life & into these patches of insane ramblings. THIS is why I can't express myself to people!
Til next time.

Posted by Sara @ 11:51 PM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Monday, March 10, 2008
It's pretend time! Join me, won't you?
If I had money & freedom to live anywhere, I'd move to Wildwood, New Jersey.
Mostly because this seems to be the only place (that wasn't torn down or turned into a flea market)where I had any happy memories.
Granted I might grow bored with it after a few months..or come winter. But it's a happy hopeful wish for me. And if nothing else, I could go to the beach most summer days...get cancers. Actually I probably wouldn't be able to afford somewhere close to the beach, no wait-in THIS fantasy, I've won the lottery. Suppose I really should start following my parent's example & buy more lottery tickets to make this a possiblity.
Hmmm...it helps to dream.

Posted by Sara @ 12:40 PM CST [Link] [2 comments]
I need that carefree feeling. That feeling that what other ppl must feel..Idontknow.
So much of what I do is planned out, actually it's required to be so.
One should never go anywhere without packing & planning days in advance.
One should leave with enough time to arrive early at a destination.
What I would like to do, is just go out & drive at night.
There really won't be anyone else out there. Far as I know, there's not many place open at night.
I could just drive around, slow if I need to, see where different stores out. Possibly drive down roads I never had the guts to take.
But I would need to wait til my parents were both asleep. I would have to worry about them catching me going out or coming in. Asking questions.
But maybe when it's warmer, I'll do this.
I really hope I can get hired somewhere soon...If for nothing else, atleast to have an excuse to buy stuff..
My dad has brought up 'having my own place' twice in about the last week. It's not like I'm much of a hassel really, I keep to myself, pay my rent & am out of sight most of the time. We just don't get along, my dad & I..That's the only problem.
Decides, you have 2 daughters. It's hard to estrange the one, then drop the 'dud' one off in the streets because she can't support herself on her own...Or that you told her to quit her job. Or that you said you would help her find a 'suitable' job after she quit her present one, and yet don't do so.
You hear the phrase "born losers," well, that's just my case..
Anyhoo..what else is there to discuss?
I wish it were morning. I'm hungry, I would like to eat breakfast. Still it's only 12am. I should go to sleep to get to this goal sooner.
Good night.
Posted by Sara @ 12:12 AM CST [Link] [No Comments]
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Another dreary day.
I went 'out' yesturday, dropping off my application at the 'dollar store' & all.
Found out 'Hollywood Video' is closing down! :( Just as I will mourn the closing of ANY video store, this was the only other local video store..Now there's just abunch of Killbusters..er..Blockbusters around. Plus I remember going to this store when I was a kid...well, probably a teenager actually. I remember, first started getting into horror flicks, I would walk back & forth looking through all their VHS horror tapes (which sadly have been gone for awhile..But that's ANOTHER mourning story all together), renting & watching all the many sequals for the first time.
Only a few years ago, while I was still in somewhat a 'carefree' time in my life - first year of working mostly part time hours at Blockbuster, I would occasionally still go over there. Renting different B or weird horror flicks that my damn store wouldn't carry. Then I would sometimes return them..late all night..Hmm..roads empty, warm summer night air..nice..
(goes in memory mode for awhile)
ANYWAYS..Most of their movies had been sold. I still managed to get 'Wallace & Gromit: Curse of the Were-Rabbit' & 'Blair Witch 2' for 5 bucks each. I'm hoping, in another week or two, they might discount their movies further...If that's the case, as always I would LOVE to stock up on some godawful horror DVDs, provided they're no more than a dollar or two.
There seems to be alot of closed/deserted stores around where I live (or within the areas I know how to drive to). Very depressing..Although everything seems to depress me these days.
Speaking of which, I will turn 25 next month. Dear god..5 years to 30. Bad, very bad..I'm gonna have to ignore this. I AM NOT AN ADULT, DAMNIT!!! Some people just aren't meant to be adults..Or simply CAN'T..or more honestly, are too damn lazy. Mentally, I'm still very much in my teenage years.
If you haven't seen Stardust, you really should. Believe me, any movie that features some bit of romance that managed to get through to my 3-sized-too-small-heart is GOOD. And there's a nice blend of humor, fantasy, action..It's just an all around GREAT picture.
That's about as postive as this entry is gonna get.
See ya.

Posted by Sara @ 10:36 AM CST [Link]
Thursday, March 6, 2008
What? They put Who's That Girl? on DVD?!! And over 2 freakin years ago? Where have I been..? Or why didn't my stinkin' video store get that in?
I saw this movie when I was little & we had a tv broadcast of it recorded on tape for awhile. Madonna's character in this movie was like one of my few rolemodels as a kid:
I miss the old rule-breaking FUN Madonna. Now I can only imagine her exercising & working all the time..In between some 'Mommy Dearest' moments:
"Lourdes, bring me the axe!"
...
I LOVE this:
Although my vision of hell is like detention in the Breakfast Club..We all set around, share our stories. Eventually things get too crowded & we say we've learned our lesson & they send us back up for REINCARNATION.
But that's only for those who actually go 'towards to the light'. I for one, will be too chicken to do such. So I'll end up having to hang around wherever I died...Probably trying in vain to work the tv. Drifting in & out of conscious..years will pass in the in blink of a eye.
Posted by Sara @ 08:39 PM CST [Link]
Monday, March 3, 2008
I'm in a slightly better mood now. Or atleast I don't feel as nutty as yesturday.
Although I DO have an excuse!
(waves a paper in the air)
No! Don't take IT!
...Ok, that's wasn't an excuse from the teacher..It was just a folded piece of paper. Damn. Worked last time!
No, but I'm sorta sick now. Just the headache/weak/coughing alot sick. It's bad, but it makes me less guilty about not looking for a job at the moment.
I drew something!
All by myself.
Granted I copied the figure drawing of the body from a book..Still.
My head hurts.
Hi & bye.
Posted by Sara @ 06:46 PM CST [Link]
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Oh here I am talking to you again.
I really don't want to me. I'm quite rude like that, ya know?
You should realise that by now & stay far FAR away from me.
I've come to realise lately that I'm quite comfortable being by myself. It's actually quite nice that you don't have to use up any of your time on OTHER ppl.
Unfortunely I'm very addicted to this computer. And that's partly because when I AM ON IT, I feel like I'm around people. I'm not interacting with them but I'm atleast AROUND them, reading their words & such.
I've probably mentioned that before. I don't remember. I'm probably repeat myself abunch of times in here.
I should be working on something right now.
I sorta hate this thing. I hate my words. Yikes, this is how it is after I'm awakened suddenly from sleep, I have the feeling of hating EVERYTHING & EVERYONE..until I'm fully awake & have caffine &/or sugar in my system.
The feeling's not quite as strong, but I do hate this thing.
Posted by Sara @ 08:00 PM CST [Link]

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